Gratitude to all that showed grace
When you go hunting it’s very important to know the kind of
animal you are hunting for or else you will come back with nothing. Lolo needed
to know where the real problem was in order to deal with it completely.
Every little girl is her dad’s princess. She gets the little
goodies and big hugs from her daddy kisses on her face as she giggles away.
Flung into the air and loved on making the world the best place to be. Every
child and every little girl loves that.
Lolo is born to a family of 8 she is a middle child of seven
and one adopted boy. She knows her dad loves her, it’s just that she has never
seen him actually smile and play. Every time she run to him to ask for milk or
a dress her dad said, “I don’t have the money”
Lolo’s family woke up every morning to pray and went to bed
praying thanking God for the food that miraculously showed up and believing God
for the next day’s meals. Her family always fasted one day a week because
without God they would starve and fall sick. They depended on God for literally
everything.
The eight children believed that God provided for all their
needs and got used to the answer of No and “I don’t have the money” which was
true from a loving father that took care of his children to the best of his
ability. Her father had a worse background, her grandmother was into witchcraft
to the extent that her dad had to move to another relatives home to live.
It was then ingrained in her that you cannot ask for help
for anything because the answer is obviously no or cannot afford it. As a
little girl she learned that life cannot give her things she needed. This lie
grew within lolo even to her older age and she dreaded asking for help since
the answer was obvious. Whenever she needed to deal with details, she assumed
people’s faces saying I cannot, I cannot afford it. Hopelessness in need screamed
at her.
“How long will this go for?” It was exhausting then she
learned to overcome her greatest fear. God graciously taught her that it’s ok
to let people know your need and ask them to help because when you don’t, its
pride and no one can exist on the earth without other people. God brought into
her life that showed grace and patience although they found this quite wired,
they could never figure out why lolo didn’t quickly ask for help. She always
said, hate of detail is more the fear of re leaving her dad’s expressions and
inability to help. When someone is your hero its had to look into their faces
and see hopelessness.
People will not always say yes and that is ok, it’s a training
Lolo has to go through.
