God’s Course Change in My Life
I have written pages and pages about how my next step has
unfolded.
In March of 2012 I remember being so certain that by this time
next year I will be leading my country in authentic worship. My heart was so
consumed in leading my entire country in facedown worship. I got so many
friends of mine praying and was in contact with many pastors and radio stations
in Uganda. While I was live, with Janet Parshall on Moody radio in her program
in the market, she asked what I will be doing after graduating. My answer was
that I will be leading my country in worship starting August 2013.
God had a different plan for me. I knew the calling and
timing but had the wrong location. In Urbana Mission Conference, God told me
that I am going to send you to a different culture and called me to accept
possibly being uncomfortable. He said, those people will speak a ‘different
Language’ I thought he was calling me to the Middle East or to Iraq or
something of that sort. I never knew that he was calling me 3 hours away from
Chicago.
I had my heart and soul set on Uganda but the way God
changed everything around, was something only He could do. He said I will give
up nations and peoples for your sake. He messes up systems and changes things
just on time for His will. One thing I know for sure no one or nothing can
stand in God’s way not even me. He changed my ‘big’ plans. I decided that
obeying God is better than anything else. Obedience is always better than
sacrifice. Following God is the wisest and safest thing anyone can ever do.
While in class, a Moody Radio staff member asked us to go
pray on the One Cry event for the American National day of prayer. I went and got
to know Ryan Loveing, His lovely wife, and the Moody Radio Executive vice.
After praying, they asked me what next, I said I wasn’t sure yet. They were
very kind and invited me to tour Life Action Head quarters where I clearly
heard God say this is where I want you to be. It was a still small voice but I
knew it was His voice. I became so restless until I said ok Lord, let’s go.
Here I am now in Life Action. On the 6th day at Camp, God told me,
“Remember I told you to lead my people this summer?” I was shocked to realize
that I had the wrong location. I was so glad to be in God’s will.
Now that I am with Life Action all I can think is “I don’t
want to wait, I don’t want to rest I want to keep going.” God once again has
different plans for me. At this moment in time He is calling me to wait on Him.
A question we were asked today at Seek week with Life Action Ministries is “What
if the revival he is calling this country and world to is dependent on your
obedience?” All I could say is, “Yes
Lord.”
Join me in prayer, this journey is very humbling, I am still
fighting. I love being busy, I cannot be still. I don’t know how to receive, I
know how to give. I started thinking about my siblings when I was 12 years old;
I started to worry about my mom’s health. I don’t know how to let go of responsibility
and wait on God. I need to totally surrender. This week, I am waiting on God to
break me and completely take me over.
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